waiting

MithrilKatanaX · Post by **MithrilKatanaX** » Mon Mar 17, 2003 2:58 am

you ever feel like life is just happening, any your there waiting for something to happen to you?

well... im waiting... but nothing has been happening... i dont want to be where i am, but whenever i get where im going, i dont want to be there either... everything is lacking... i usually to feel alive at punk shows... get in the pit, jump around a bit, slam into people, hit some people, get hit by some people... so i went to the show last night... i was still waiting... i just didnt happen... the life that i usually find/have didnt return...

everything around me is so unfulfilling and unsatisfying... its been like that all weekend, and on and off for the past week or two...

and ive had an anoying dry lump in the back of my throat... makes it hard to breath... its probably all in my head though...

i dunno... this just basically sucks, and the more times i talk about it the better i fe... actually talking about it dosent make me feel any better... and i bet that most people dont really care...

so... anyway... yea...

Asmaria · Post by **Asmaria** » Mon Mar 17, 2003 3:37 am

You can't just live your life expecting something to happen. If all of us did that, we'd just be sitting around waiting for our neighbor to do something. If you're bored, look for something to do. Try to find something you want to achieve and work toward it. If you don't have goals in your life, of course it's going to seem boring and meaningless. Its not easy, but you'll find something. Find something you're interested in, and look for others who are interested in the same things. You say you like going to shows, so there's one thing... but I dunno... the way you describe it doesn't make it seem like you're achieving much other than having a good time for a short while. No one ever finds their purpose in life easily, but if you keep looking, you'll find it eventually. You just can't wait for it to come and find you, cause it won't.

[Edit: oyeah, and just being bored on the weekends really -is- a normal thing. ^_^;; Happens to me all the time. Chat with your friends online, read a book, play a game, or draw something. Laying around doing nothing really stinks, so you gotta make your own fun.]

MithrilKatanaX · Post by **MithrilKatanaX** » Mon Mar 17, 2003 3:50 am

thats the real problem though... i have goals and ambitions and things to do, but none of them are... i dunno... they arent satisfying to me right now... im not actually waiting for something to happen, i am trying to make stuff happen, but nothing is... its hard to explain... i not trying to be like "life sucks, blah blah blah, hate everything, blah blah blah, etc." i wast just trying to ask if anyone ever felt like all of their trying really didnt matter and stuff... i just got of on a tangent cause im feeling a litle depressed tonight... it was just the ramblings of a fool

Asmaria · Post by **Asmaria** » Mon Mar 17, 2003 3:53 am

*hugs* Its ok to feel that way. Sometimes I do too. I suppose I'm overly optimistic compared to some people though... Maybe you should look at why it's unsatisfying and try to work around that? Anyways... it's not abnormal the way you feel. o.o I hope you find what you're waiting for.